I can't commit. I simply can't, to anything. I thought that I'd give a little more effort to this blog, post regularly to keep record of this randomness that's going on with my life, but no. It really isn't about this blog, more about how I'm struggling to give a pattern to my days. Lately it just feels like I'm trying too hard to create this harmony between everything, school, friends, family, other commitments, that I've lost control of everything.
It's just setting me back, on a lot of levels. I tried to talk to a friend or two about it but I just keep hearing an echo of what the little voice in my head has been screaming lately. It's been 'different' for a while now and I can't decided if this is just a phase that will it's self out, or maybe just a buffer zone before I can get used to things again.
Panic, depression, anxiety, whatever this is ... must go soonOff-Thought :-
On a lighter note, I was browsing through a few blogs last night. Especially automobile, technology and gaming ones. I'm a new stuff bitch, I have this firm feeling that out there is this super filthy rich girl who loves the shit out of me, a little note to her.
"Honey, I'm busy tonight, get me this and we'll talk later ;)
- BMW 330Ci Cabriolet
- Microsoft Zune
- Sony Playstation 3
Thanks baby, you rock"
WHAT ? .. There's no harm in being a little materialistic *angel face*
Until later,Reading :
The Historian By Elizabeth Kostova (Reread)Single :
Sisqo > Thong SongAlbum
: Crossfade > Falling Away